so im 15. no big deal. seriously. well except the fact that i will get my ic. soon. i hope. heh.

no real celebrations. just well-wishes and my grandma cooked my favourite dishes. which i ate alone. so not fun. seriously. i mean. for all the 15 years i have been on this earth, never once have i really anticipated any of my birthdays. so its my birthday? big deal. many a times i just completely cant be bothered and the date will slip my mind, until some kind soul comes to me and wish me happy birthday, and i will go, oh yeah, its my birthday. yeah. hah. kinda strange it may be for some of you, who thinks that birthdays are damn important days in ones life. and anticipate it and celebrate it joyously. oh well, maybe i will, for my 18th of 21st birthday. hopefully. for maybe then i will have someone to celebrate it with me, and make it a day to remember. insyAllah

anyway, i read the newspaper just now. was a nice suprise to find out about the mlep programme that will be opened in ijc next year. despite the fact that all of us was hoping that it will be opened in njc instead, its still great.. i mean yeah, its a neighbourhood jc, but its a new one, so the first few batches will be the ones that either make it or break it. and the chances of doing better are supposedly higher. and the fact that taking mlep would boost the chances of doing mighty well in the 'a's. and they are offering media related studies. which is way cool. i mean, that's two of my interests combined in one subject. not necessarily media, but more of social and people related fields. like yeah. and to top that up, its near to my house, so that practically saves my time and money! thank you Allah! i was having my doubts about going to a new school, but hey, new schools means a wider variety. and the campus is big!

well, you might be thinking why the hell is the girl already thinking of jc admission when she's not even in sec 4 yet. hey, its good to have goal and aim. it will keep you motivated. and i have my goals. apparently i have to postpone my plans to go to australia. i mean with all the racism going on and prejudice against muslim. damn. i was highly looking forward to getting away from the rigid singapore education system. ohwell, maybe i should do damn well for my 'a's, earn a scholarship, and get flown off to some country to further my studies...