i have two files worth of amaths corrections to do. how nice. ok fine. it was supposed to be completed before the exam but how? ahh. luckily 3/4 are already done. thank you thank you thank you. now i have 1/4 left. did i tell you i love amaths? chemistry paper was, as expected. no comments. let's just say i had to walk from school to the mrt station to calm down. heh. nice. with the hot blazing sun right on top of my head. i am seriously counting on my multiple choices. felt like tearing up the paper there and then. namun sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa.

reminiscence. i was going through my prose collections. gosh i used to be so morbid. i guessed i lost that touch once i got our of depression. yeah. that was eons ago. but i still loved the writings. here's a peek-a-boo on my past writing.


repetoire
again.

she stabbed herself again. as she pulled the blade, she felt the blade slice through her flesh as it did countless of times. she was used to the pain.

she watched the blood gush. watched it drip to the floor. and soon, watch the blood clot on the wound.

she stared with fascination though the ritual has been repeated many a times. to be exact, hourly every single day. she bandaged the cut, sat herself infront of the tv and watched while keeping an eye on the time.

once the hour was up she took out her blade again, with relish. she chose a new spot and stabbed again.

she had wanted to feel the pain. she lived to feel the pain.

the pain was the only thing that reminded her that she was still alive.

gosh. thank god i'm over that phase of my life. depression i never want to feel again. i'm a new person. i love myself.