its funny when you change, people look at you and refuse to acknowledge the fact that you're a different person and expect to be treated in a different manner. [read: respect]

just because there's a 101 minah tudung-s out there who have no ounce of self-respect in them, doesnt mean the same goes for me. if i chose to remain the same bitch that i was back then, i wouldnt have chose to don the tudung right? you freaking know im not the kind of girl who's so self-deprived that all my actions will revolve around trying to attract attention or copy some other people to get accepted into whatever cliques that others confine themselves to.

i very much prefer to be independant. thank you very much.

first and foremost, i do not regret my past. whatever happened in the past, was a blessing in disguise. i will never fail to realise that whatever i went through a few years back, had shaped the person that i've become today. maybe the outcome today isnt exactly perfect, but i dare say, im much better off than most of my peers in terms of experience and mentality. yes, i still have trouble accepting reality, at times prefering to conjure up make believe life situations to drown in, but at least when the time comes, i face life head on. i've my past to be a constant reminder to never take that same path again. ever.

so please, if you dont have respect for yourself, at least respect others.

you dont deserve to be a leader. at all.