Random midnight ramblings
its 10 minutes to midnight and im still on.
couldnt coax my eyes to sleep and go to lala-land, so psycho-ed my bro to let me use the computer again. baah. it could be because i slept for 4 hrs in the afternoon, all the way to 830.
which reminds me, i have yet to qada' solat maghrib.
dinosaur went back to tekong for one whole week. and i feel horrible because he was hospitalised for THREE days last week for high fever, and i had absolutely no idea. how nice right. and he terminated his handphone number, so the only way is for him to contact me. which apparently he didnt. and i found out yesterday night when he gave me a 5 minute call just as i was about to fall asleep - to tell me that liverpool lost the match. what the?! ok fine, i was happy to hear from him, and all, but....
now can somebody tell me, do my insecurities stand on good grounds or what?
prelims just flew by. everything happens so fast, and before i know it, its o levels. even ramadhan is just around the corner! i.am.chasing.time then what the hell are you doing here! insyallah, my prelims results should be fine. a few distinctions should be viable. this is it. this is my decision. this is my choice. no time for regrets.
did i mention that my mood swings are going haywire all over again. at times im able to get it so under control, and sometimes, well, lets just say all hell break loose. i still seek solace in Him, for i still hold on to the belief that all of these are just tests for my faith. i failed before, i wont fail again. whatever the hurdle, i know im capable of achieving success. i have a mission to accomplish as His humble servant, and insyallah, i will with all my might. but i am a normal human being, though normal seems to be an understatement. i make mistakes, and am extremely vulnerable to the worldly temptations, and many a times i've given in. im not proud of it, but hey, its the truth.
my anxiety attacks are killing me. especially now i have enough difficulty to breathe in the first place. apparently, it runs in the family. gosh. i dont need this, not with o's coming soon.
Please give me the strength Allah, for only to you do i seek solace and forgiveness. Insyallah.
its 10 minutes to midnight and im still on.
couldnt coax my eyes to sleep and go to lala-land, so psycho-ed my bro to let me use the computer again. baah. it could be because i slept for 4 hrs in the afternoon, all the way to 830.
which reminds me, i have yet to qada' solat maghrib.
dinosaur went back to tekong for one whole week. and i feel horrible because he was hospitalised for THREE days last week for high fever, and i had absolutely no idea. how nice right. and he terminated his handphone number, so the only way is for him to contact me. which apparently he didnt. and i found out yesterday night when he gave me a 5 minute call just as i was about to fall asleep - to tell me that liverpool lost the match. what the?! ok fine, i was happy to hear from him, and all, but....
now can somebody tell me, do my insecurities stand on good grounds or what?
prelims just flew by. everything happens so fast, and before i know it, its o levels. even ramadhan is just around the corner! i.am.chasing.time then what the hell are you doing here! insyallah, my prelims results should be fine. a few distinctions should be viable. this is it. this is my decision. this is my choice. no time for regrets.
did i mention that my mood swings are going haywire all over again. at times im able to get it so under control, and sometimes, well, lets just say all hell break loose. i still seek solace in Him, for i still hold on to the belief that all of these are just tests for my faith. i failed before, i wont fail again. whatever the hurdle, i know im capable of achieving success. i have a mission to accomplish as His humble servant, and insyallah, i will with all my might. but i am a normal human being, though normal seems to be an understatement. i make mistakes, and am extremely vulnerable to the worldly temptations, and many a times i've given in. im not proud of it, but hey, its the truth.
my anxiety attacks are killing me. especially now i have enough difficulty to breathe in the first place. apparently, it runs in the family. gosh. i dont need this, not with o's coming soon.
Please give me the strength Allah, for only to you do i seek solace and forgiveness. Insyallah.
posted by ika @ 12:07 AM
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