salams everyone.
how have you been?
fine alhamdulillah i hope.

gosh, i need to rant.
(this is going to be a hell of a jumbled-up entry)

first up, prelims results are up. all i have to say - alhamdulillah. words cannot describe the immense gratitude i feel towards Him. subhanallah. the night when all the results were finalised (after moderation), i teared before Him as i thanked him so.
Prelims 2006
English - B4 [screwed up!!]
Higher Malay - A1
Malay Lit (Full Humans) - A1
Combined Humans (SS & Hist) - A2
E. Maths - A1
A. Maths - B4
P. Physics - A2
P. Chem - B4
L1R5 : 11
yes, i know its only prelims, but insyAllah, i will do much better for 'O's. thats my promise. so please dear Allah, don't let me slack during this last lap. its go go Go! time to sprint baby! i will make myself proud. God Willing.

ok next up, more 'recent' issues.
i realised that with 'o's around the corner, more of us are being faced with obstacles and challenges. dugaan datang bertimpa-timpa beb! and the funny thing, its all mainly due to relationships. what with the full-time jerk boyfriend, the i-hate-you-but-i-love-you syndrome, the ever competitive boyfriend and of course, with regards to yours truly, the who-am-i-to-you question. so yes, not everything's fair in couplesville. sometimes i even wonder whether i SHOULD be there or am i just self-disillusioned to believe that i actually belong there.

its one thing that he's acting like a Chipsmore cookie, sometimes he's around, sometimes he's not, and its another thing to leave me completely hanging waiting for a blardy explanation that never seems to justify. i wont lie that he's got my heart, but if this is the way things are going to be, well, its safe to say that im not willing to go through all this crap. i need to know what the hell is going on in his life, and it doesnt help that he's constantly away in camp and even when he's out, he's staying at the other end of this freaking SMALL island. why oh why did i get stuck to an eastside guy?!?!

conversation's sparse. it fcuking short, what 5 minutes? and that is if he even bothers to call. hello, do you freaking expect me to call you everytime? i have my dignity to speak of. gah. its frustrating when you feel like you're two strangers, not knowing whats going on in the other person's life. its worst when there's a third party who's starting to get involved. but i wont touch on that just yet.

baby, lets work it out shall we?

i love the fact that my friendships with some of the girls in school are growing closer by the minute. after 4 years, its only now when we actually delve into a deeper meaning of friendship. i love you guys (shafiqah & anum)! thank you for allowing me to open up my heart and trusting once again. you're a gem. makcik slengers unite! heh.

im getting stuck on hady mirza's songs. gosh. that is spastic! no offence. but he sounds good. yeah! serenade me to sleep baby!

gosh. i just read the whole freaking entry. *rolls eyes* heh. too bad.
will he call tonight...? im tired of waiting like a fool.

Salams,

Atikah.