the results came out at 12 just now. the turmoil of emotions felt such as anxiety, disappointment and regret felt before the release of results was unbearable. the tension could be felt throughout the whole class. yes, 90% of the ppl in my class took higher mt. damn. everybody was so anxious, practically nobody was paying attention to the teacher in front. we were practically begging him to not teach as nobody could freaking absorb whatever he was teaching.. AND, the fact that we were only waiting for ONE result and we were already so stressed, WHAT ABOUT NEXT YEAR!?!?!?

in fact, i was doing something else. you can say i was trying to destress and calm myself down. what was i doing while the chem teacher was yakking away trying to teach us combustion/cracking/substitution? heh. rose folding. yeah thats right. in fact, i wasnt the only one, the girls sitting around me also took some strips of the paper to fold roses too. heh. nice way to release tension. and why the hell am i folding the roses?? haha. its for my mum's birthday, and viewing the fact that i have no idea what else to buy for her, i decided to fold my own paper-cloth roses and place them inside a glass bottle. hahaha. save money i guess. heh. ooooh, and her birthday falls on exactly the same day as my gpa competition!!

anyway, the present sec 4s had to stay for the release of results. alhamdulillah, this year, our school did much better as compared to last year. very much better i presume. but only 2 malay students went on stage this year.. hmmm.. this year will be more pressurising for my batch as they will be expecting us to perform better. damn. hahaha. nevermind. its for our own good. insyAllah, next year i'll be one of them standing on stage who received 7 or more distinctions! its just a matter of whether i have a will and determination to strive to achieve my goals. and yes, with the help of family and GOD by my side, i'll always keep track of my goals and achieve it with my fullest commitment. this is just the beginning. the game has yet to begin. and im going to win it. insyAllah.

the key is to have faith, and i'll be able to overcome to darkest storms and run through the deepest seas.