OMG!

i was reading the previous post and my jaw literally dropped.

WOW!
yucks!

anyway, good news: SUFI AND I HAVE COMPLETED OUR FILMING FOR GEMILANG!
finally, after HOURS of sweat, pain, and frustration (IM NOT KIDDING!), we finally got it done. you cannot imagine what we've gone through just to get this @^@$^#%#^# 30 seconds video. from being stuck in the rain sharing one SMALL umbrella, to running to a half-renovated shelter that is strewn with contractor stuff, to getting sick, we've been there, done that. AND, after immense planning to film at washington park, WHICH WE DID for FOUR hours but both cameras went flat, it started to rain, and the last decent shot we took was deleted, we finally did it it in school in LESS THAN ONE HOUR! sesungguhnya ia mencabar kesabaranku. =D

so one competition preparation down, two more to go.

which reminds me.
I have yet to prepare for pidato, which *suprise surprise* is in exactly a week!
darn darn darn darn!
my rate of progress? nil, zilch, zero, nada, KOSONG!
but its ok, dont panic. it can and SHALL be done! GO ATIKAH GO! =D

aaaand, MIQ'S written test is tomorrow and i ALSO have not done anything. which is quite irresponsible of me. not quite, VERY. well, at least, i've completed translating and finding extra questions to those that sufi gave. which is alhamdulillah. TEDIOUS lah. and i just found out that the empire of faith videos over at youtube has THREE parts and each lasts for about ONE HOUR! great. there goes my plan to do last minute work. gaaaah! nevermind. PERSEVERE! insyallah, boleh lah...

WHY have i actually been unable to do anything really for the past week? HAHA. good question.

answer?
TONSILLITIS.
the bigbangboom word!
man, i think this is really getting out of hand. i was already sick on sunday, got caught in the downpour on monday on the way to school, and got a gift in the form of a fever of 38.7 degrees PLUS the flu bug. nice. so did you really expect me to get anything done this week? kirim salam laah.
EVEN with my screwed condition, my mum still refuses to let me go for the operation. keeps throwing reasons here and there.
I'D RATHER NOT EAT FRIED/SPICY FOOD FOR A MONTH THAN HAVE THIS RECURRING SICKNESS!
hopefully, the hot doctor would be able to convince her that REMOVING (HAH!) the tonsils is the best option, during our appointment this monday..

PLEASE DOC PLEASE... ;D

I think my entries are becoming more and more nonsensical. WTFish??
Maybe its because my eyes are only half-open.
Yeah maybe.

HAHA.

the educated me WILL BE BACK! hahahaha. =D

As I Look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies
You're the simplest love I've known
and the purest one I'll own
no you'll never be alone

Salam guys.

I am such a sucker for love songs. and weddings.
Thank god the boyfriend is half-matjiwang. HAHA.
Lets see, how about combining my ultimate love song and HIS ultimate love song?
Marc Anthony's My Baby You AND Engelbert Humperdinck's A Man Without Love
WOAH.
mush overload!

yes, im actually supposed to be doing TWO things now, [blogging isnt exactly one of it]
a) Research for pidato's topic Pendidikan penentu Kejayaan [translation: Education determines success]
b) Find some ideas or concepts for introductory video for GEMILANG 2007. need something that has impact! HELP?

to be fair, i did spend the first hour or so doing such, but jeng jeng jeng.. Here i am now. i actually should be at mount faber with sufi for the filming but since both of us are lazyasses tired, him from mugging and myself from god-knows-what, we decided to cancel the whole game plan and film the thing in school instead. darn. that explains the fact why we need to get a BOOMBANGCRASH effect for the video! darn darn darn. i am so easily distracted! hahaha..

Thank god i only concentrate on ONE F! HAHA!

Since i've already touched on "F", i might as well continue right? =D

You see, i believe that your significant other shoudlnt only be THE OTHER, you know? i believe he should be MORE than that. and alhamdulillah, i found that in F.

He's my best friend, my confidante, my punching bag, and movie kaki, amongst others. in the short span that we've known each other, alhamdulillah, he knows me best, from my past history, my likes and dislikes, my love for food [hah!], my screwed childhood and whatnot. never have i met someone who i can talkandtalkandtalk with so comfortably and freely, without having the fear of being judged. and being the violent person that i am, he has received quite a fair bit of punches/pinches/etc from yourstruly. not to mention the fact that he'd already taken much of my nonsense, panic attacks, and mood swings in his stride. did i mention that we nearly broke up twice? and i caused him to cry? WTFish? No one has cried because of me okaaaaay!! and yes, both times he played the role of mediator and asked me to come back. HAHA. jahat siot. and alhamdulillah, we are on stable ground now.

seing a significant change in F is suprisingly, satisfying. you see, being a typical[read:generalised] 23 year old mat, he doesnt solat. it was already alhamdulillah for my part that he didnt indulge in drugs/alcohol, because if he did, i'd probably wont even cast him a second glance. i still remember that date, which according to F, was the one that tied him down to me [#@!^$@???]. it was after dikir practice, and we went to have dinner. after which, he was about to send me home, but as i looked at the watch, i knew it was impossible to reach home in time for maghrib, so i asked him to stop by the nearest mosque for solat. i even asked him "You kalau keluar dengan kawan tak solat ke?" [You dont pray when you go out with your friends?] i knew he was suprised, perhaps a tad bit uncomfortable too. but we did stop for maghrib before he drove me home. THAT was before we got together. Yesterday, he told me that day he could have actually just sat in the car and waited for me WITHOUT praying, but for some reason, he actually felt that he should, and that because of THAT incident, he pursued me. WOAH! but yes, now we do stop for prayers, and alhamdulillah, he's attempting to learn to read the Quran. =D

its good to know that someone loves you for who you are.
education gap doesnt matter. so what?
F's stable, he loves me.
It takes two hands to clap my friend.
We'll work together to make it work and have a good life.

=D

Salam guys.

Its high time i actually update this blog of mine. Life's been crazy, and sweet at the same time. heee. =D

Lets see..


1) I have fully come to terms with my relationship with F.
What started of as friendship has evolved into alhamdulillah, a full love-infused commitment for both parties. it has also, been given the GREEN light by BOTH families, which is enough a reason for joy. Yes, admittedly, we started out on a VERY ROUGH patch, with fights and quarrels every week, entirely due to the fact that we still needed to adjust to each other and figure which way to go together. The flight gradually smoothens with significant sacrifices being made by both parties and much heart-to-heart talks, and alhamdulillah, we are where we are today, and hopefully, it'll last.

Yes, I'm 17, very much in love with a 23-year-old guy who is already planning for marriage. Honestly, it's good that he's planning for a lifetime commitment, but i dare say, i'm just living by the day. Should our jodoh be with each other, alhamdulillah. Till akad is said, effort shall continously be made to make it work, insyAllah.

Eherm...

Another reason for me to stick with F is the fact that yes, i have met his mum. the meeting (at his home and car), was alhamdulillah, a success. =D

Never have i imagined i was able to feel so much for someone. I thought i was in love with A.Hafiz, but i was wrong.

THIS is love. THIS time its for real.

And i'll always pray that i'll love F for Him, so that i can bring us together to the right path and never shall we steer towards wrong, insyAllah. Never have i felt so worried for someone who had an accident before. Never have i felt so happy to see a loved one pray. =)


2) I have 3 competitions under my belt. (Which is absolutely crazy)

a. Pidato @ TPJC
b. Pengacaraan @ Gemilang
c. MIQ @ FMSA

Honestly, i'm only focusing on (a) and (b); (c) is still under KIV mode because my general knowledge isnt what you can exactly say be in top form, no matter the fact that i have been reading the newspapers conscientiously (HAH!) for the past 2-3 weeks. my gosh, i never knew reading newspapers can be so time consuming AND tiring! yes, i actually take the effort to read EVERY single article, which of course, feeds me with loads of information [read:OVERLOAD!]. you should try it sometime. HAHA. =D

my mind has unfortunately not readjusted to school mode yet, so yes, my preparations for these competitions are still on snail mode. HAH. every time i try to do research and/or prepare for them, say like now, i end up distracting myself and do something else. @!#%$@$@!%^$. So yes, lets wait for school to reopen, wait for myself to be killed, then i shall go full force...

and why the heck should i be killed? HAHAHA.

you see, i just henna-ed my hands during my trip to kampung! and i didnt only did it on my nails, its on my fingers too! (which means i easily get mistaken for a just-married-bride) darn darn darn. i have my doubts about it fading before school starts in 2 days time.. HAHA. padan muka! gatal sangat kenapa? HAHAHAH.

Darn, i have loads more to tell, but since im not in school mode, im getting restless! and someone at the other side of singapore [read:bedok] is waiting for my call. =D

ps: sorry to all my friends whom i said to that you'd get tired of your significant other if you meet everyday. I WANT TO MEET F EVERYDAY! heeee.

i never knew that flying doubles could be this difficult.
what happens when you realise that you're too young for it?
what happens when you know you cant let go of your partner because its too cruel to let go just without a concrete reason?

its about to be a month now, and he's already talking about marriage waaaay earlier. admittedly, its good to plan, but isnt it a tad bit too early? how do i voice out this concern of mine, without making it seem that i have no confidence in this relationship? how do i ask him to slow down and take things slowly.

how do i scream to him I'M 17!!!

perhaps, it was a fault on my part to actually agree to be in a relationship with a 23-year-old guy who doesnt fool around. perhaps it was my fault for falling for someone who is stable enough to make me feel safe. but its a bit too much isnt it?

but sometimes,
there are just certain decisions you have to stick by..
and just hope you wont regret it.

NRIC : S90xxxxxC
Name : NUR ATIKAH AMALINA BTE MOHD Z

1. The results of your application are as follows:
Posted Institution : ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE
Course Name : ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS)
Course Code : 30A
2. If you are posted to a JC/MI, please report to the JC/MI on 7 Mar 2007 at 7.30am. If you are posted to a Polytechnic/ITE, an enrolment package with the relevant enrolment details will be sent to you.
3. If you wish to apply for a transfer to a particular course, you should approach the institution concerned directly. The institution concerned will inform you of the outcome of your application.

So there it is. My fate for the next 2 years have been sealed. I shall be a Saint, and i cant help realising that my parent (or more specifically, my mum) had been hoping against hope that i'd get into NJC, instead. I fully understand the reason why. Looking at the fact that not a single malay from SAJC, no make that no one (i think) got any good/fantastic results. oh well, i might as well be the first! =D insyAllah.

anyway, did you guys feel the tremors as a result from the 6.3 richter earthquake that happened at sumatra islands? I DID! woah. and i thought i was hallucinating until my mum alerted me about it too. hello, i was happily munching at the table when i actually felt the tremors on my butt and i saw the fake plant that my mum placed beside the tv console SWAYING! i mean, it couldnt be the effects of antibiotics right? i mean, i've consumed it for what? more that a week now, and only now i hallucinate? KELAKAR APA? wow. its only tremors here and everybody's panicking. i just watched CNA and the tremors caused quite a commotion in the cbd area and also toa payoh (SO YES I WASNT HALLUCINATING!). imagine what's happening and what the indonesians are feeling? i wonder... Subhanallah.

so yes, this entry is supposed to be a DUH entry.

anyway tho, nope, its not hafiz. he is GONE from the pages of my life. HAHAH. ni orang lain.. and i'm going to meet his mum next week. *faints*